I started talking to people and initiating a birth mother search. She is going to find out from Holt first if they even have enough contact information. If they don’t, I don’t know if I want to go through with it. I don’t think I’ll have any luck even if there is contact information.
I’m supposed to write a letter to her and send some photographs. I don’t know what to say. I’m writing to a complete stranger. I feel awkward about this whole thing and that it’s not something that is not absolutely necessary for my to-do list of life but it is something I’ll regret if I don’t at least try.
I cringe every time I use a contraction.